…And it occured to me that the voracious ambition of humans is never sated by dreams coming true, because there is always the thought that everything might be done better and again.
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Hazel Grace Lancaster. The Fault in Our Stars.
I called it (the pain) a nine because I was saving my ten. And here it was, the great and terrible ten, slamming me again and again as I lay still and alone in my bed staring at the ceiling, the waves tossing me against the rocks then pulling me back to the sea so they could launch me again into the jagged face of the cliff, leaving me floating face up on the water, undrowned.
As he read, I fell in love the way you fall asleep; Slowly, and then all at once.
I’m in love with you, and I’m not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I’m in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we’re all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we’ll ever have, and I am in love with you.